Easter 2010

Olivia's egg

Handsome lil Oliver

The girls swinging


Oliver, nanny, Oly and granny Dixie

Oly and Smelly

Puppies!!!

Bronx

This is Bronx...Haylee's new love!

Jeepin...like mother like daughters!

St. Patricks Day

Lil booger would not let me brush her hair I chased her around for 15 min and gave up...she has such thin fly away hair...blonds!!!

St pats day was also crazy hair day at Hay's school...Aunt Rena did her hair since I was already at work before she got up...crazy crazy :)


You can see Oly's toe is still bleeding it got a million time worse it swelled to the size of two toes so me my dad and rena gloved up and went into surgery! Good ole I&D (incision and drainage) but ya over a week later it is still draining and the whole lil toe turned black :( it has been seen by a dr. and they say it is on the up and up.

Oly and Duke

Aunt Sarena watched the girls this week while nanny Dixie was out of town. Rena brought her lil dog Duke with to help. Oly and Duke became fast friends!! This is a pic of them taking Hay to school.

Apparently I am far from super mom!

yes this is chocolate on her foot...hay said that chocolate helps everything...lol

Ok so last weekend in the ER for the burnt lil fingers and now this weekend a broken toe! I swear I can not stay ahead of the game with my little Oly...I need super powers to keep up with her! I saw this happen and it was like slow motion. I was scrubbing the kitchen floor (because of the prior mess that she made) and she opens the cupboard grabs chicken noodle soup and it falls out of her hands I tried to catch it but was too slow :(

Just a FYI...they do nothing for broken toes! I am so thankful she has such a high tolerance for pain...poor gal!

here is a pic of the damage...and yes these are some long feet! She gets them from her worthless father!!!

Visit with Crysta and the kids

Crysta, Kymbrielle, Kaelynn, and lil Damon came over today to visit us today. I love catching up with Crysta! We are thankful to have them in our lives!!

Kaelynn and Haylee

Hay bein a butt!

Damion Jr...lol

The lil blondies...Oly, Kymbrielle, Kaelynn and Hay...and my ugly couch!! Cant wait only four more days and I get my new furniture delivered WOOT WOOT!

Hay's missing front teeth!

Oly's Burn :(

Little Oly Poly decided she was going to help me straighten my hair, she stuck her little hand in the straightener just as I closed it...OUCH! Poor baby!! I felt so bad! And we spent the morning in the Insta Care and they wrapped it for us, but of course Oly kept taking it off the lil stinker! The Dr. was worried about infection due to all the blistering...she has such a high pain tolerance! If it had been Hay she would still be crying today...Oly is a tooper! but I still feel sooooooooo bad, like I am the worlds worst mother :(

Goin blond

So every couple of years I get this urge to go blond...I have the bug again so I think I am going to grow out my hair and go blond. Well see how blond I get before I go dark again lol like always.

I'm moving on...

I've dealt with my ghosts and faced all my demons, finally content with the past I regret.
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness, for once I am at peace with myself...

Valentine's Day

Silly lil bunch!

My flowers :)

These beautiful flowers were sent to me at work...from a secret admirer... :) I know who you are and thank you! Very appreciated! I needed a pick me up, and these came just in time! I am lucky to have you!!!

Milo's Blanky

Aunt Sarena was done from Oregon and stopped by to visit me and the girls...She made this amazing blanket for Sammy with her favorite pictures of sweet baby Milo! What a thoughtful gift! Sammy will be able to curl up with her Milo...very touching. It is also in the colors that his nursery was done in...blue and brown.

Paternity Testing...

So very personal subject to talk about! I guess I am just needing to vent what is inside. I really do need to start a journal to pen all of these bottled up emotions. But until then....

So Oly and I have been summoned by the all mighty ORS to do our genetic testing. Next week mind you...At a very inconvenient time I might add! So all these thoughts rattle through my mind...two very different scenarios...

1. Have the testing done, have the results and then like discussed with my lawyer take ass hole back to court and get every cent he owes for the past couple years and have that also be garnished by a court on top of his obligations to ORS. And finally rest in the satisfaction of him for once having to be repsonsible, accountable, and screwed. As that is my life!!!

OR

2. Since I can find no way in my mind on how to have the test not come back connecting him as the father ( I do have dna peeps in the family so I have been asking about how I can fail the test...blah blah...not possible) Just dropping the case and falling off the planet so that I never have to be connected to, be near, or findable to Brent as I truly have never felt hatered until I have been burned twice by him. A Brent free life is nice and peaceful...But do I let him continue to get away with being such a bad father who is not in any way willing to do what is right? Well at least what a normal careing father would consider right? Is it wrong to not hold him accountable just because I never want to have to deal with his lies? You know it is sad, I would hate to be him and have to live with this day after day...It is funny I was talking to my parents about it the other night and I said "I had to cry, beg, plead...he still would not get it...How does he sleep at night?" and my dad says "Very easy, and next to the next girl who is paying his way...Brent is and will always be all about Brent" And he is right, it is sad for Oly but it is true...

So I am still debating on what would be the choice that would bring me the most peace...

I really had hoped that after 1 1/2 years of seperation from his daughter he would finally be moved to do the right thing and what is best for her...u know not think about him...I am also very bothered that he lied to me...our last conversation I begged him to move down here and help me...I told him I would even release him from child support oblig if he would just help me out by taking his time and being a consistant father. He told me that he made 75,000 there and that there is no way he could make that here and thus was not willing to leave NH not even for her...well truth comes out he makes 36,000 and he could easily make that here...he just did not want to...selfish bastard...ya he makes 75...cuz half of it is Catherines money!!!! I do not know why he feels he has to lie! I dont give a shit what he makes, money is not what makes a successful person! The only reason I turned him in was so that he had to be some what responsible for the little girl he ran away from...not the money! I guess he will figure that out when no one is at his funeral and he cant take his money with him...By the time he figures out what is most important in life, it will be too late.

Ok I feel better now! I love writing...maybe I will write a book...I will title it Jenny, Oly, and her piece of shit dead beat dad...That has the makings for a good book admit it!!!